Girl if you got, you have to work it for the thrill of getting something for nothing

What a hottie to a brother I've got, girls watch out!

Today was lots of fun! Went to the city to meet up with my IB girlies, Roza and Mandy-The quitter! Before I met up with them I went to my old job and said hi to Tintin, talked to her for a while, she is the only one left from the old crew there. While we were talking Klara came in, which was a pleasant surprise. She just went by. Two ex-coworkers. Laughed at old times, working together, being retards and getting yelled at for talking instead of working. Gonna meet up with those ladies for a longer hanging out. Afterwards I met up with mommy and A, had a glass of wine and left to Stureplan. Was so nice to see Rozi and Mandy, didn't feel like we haven't seen each other for a year. Had so much to talk about! Mandy listened mostly, cheeky thing. So today was fun, except the headache that I got. Annoying piece of shit.

Also wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year!!! Hope that 2009 brings more happiness and all each and everyone of you wish for. It is funny how you all retards in Aussie will travel in time and welcome 2009 about 8 hours before me!!!

XXX

Happy Birthday!

It is now officially 26th of December here in Sweden, 11am which means it is around 10pm in Gold Coast and someone special might be getting ready for Surfers or is with her parents. In this post I want to wish Happy Birthday to Allana Davie!!! Congratulations baby! I wish you the very best, all the health in the world, hope you had the best day ever! I can now call you an adult because you turn 20! Welcome to the "old crew". You will now age with the speed of sound and your boobs will follow the gravitation law more and more by every year that goes! You are amazing and mean very much to me, continue being that wonderful person that you are!

All the best,

Lexy

xxx

Found this in a magazine

Hey it's okey...

...to believe if it's low fat, you can eat double

...to text your ex at 2.30am after one too many to find out why it didn't work

...to Google yourself, your ex, your crush, and your enemy. And evryone in between

...to believe mini versions of anything are basically giult-free, so, mini mars bars = fine

...tobelieve your reading glasses actually make you look more intelligent

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone!

Down the memory lane

Comments on my blog and New Year resolutions!

Just got back from Stockholm, went to a lovely Japanese restaurant with my mama, brother and A. Oh I have been crawing sushi, good sushi, with perfectly made rice, really fresh fish, no fried beef/chicken (and all possible crap) and absolutely no mayo. Sushi in Oz feels more like junk food, a healthy version of junk food. Afterwards we went to Radisson's Skybar for a few drinks. I am getting used to this whole free drinks at the bars. Oh it is going to be so hard slapping the goon.

I am so glad that I got 2 comments on my blog, more of those are welcome, even though I write it to get down all of my bs, it is great when people comment on what you have written. Thank you mom and Danja (for the comments I got months ago) and also Allana and Lizzie! Mwah!

Also, Lizzie, I have read you blog, even tried commenting but then forgot to fill some of the spaces or something went wrong and I couldn't be bothered to rewrite it.

As for Allana, simply because you have bigger boobs, therefore it would be harder to tape yours, not mentioning the fact that you just loove to flaunt them. We'd save time and boob tape. Hope that answered your question.

When it comes to 2009, I have a few resolutions that I would love to try out, here comes my list (under construction):

1. Be nice to Allana. Stop fighting and being a bitch, start listening it wont harm you. Simply give her more attention. Show the appreciation, because there is so much appreciation.

2. GOON BAN, no more, PASSION POP ban, stop all of this drinking 10 min before going out. Buy a coctail shaker, Allana has a coctail book, buy wine, start drinking in advance, this unclassy rushing is just unclassy. I like starting at 5-6 pm, talking around the table, getting ready. So much better.

3. Save money. Start saving for Perth trip and just having some cash laying there. I would also like to write that following is very me "She was spending cash like it was out of fashion".

4. Hang out with Steve and Karen. We do actually live in the same city.

5. Take uni seriously. (don't laugh Allana, I know that you secretely think that too)

I have so many more...let's have those to start with.

Also, forgot to write, people think that my year is -86 or -84, how did that happen? I really don't look like i'm 24 (at least 24 as someone said, what a compliment, made my night). I mean I can't stand the fact that I am beeing placed in the "grandpa" category. People who fit in that category are; Phil, Steve, Linda Udnes, Barbro, May Linn, Eric, ¿Me?, Hooold ooon, ¿Que? Me? No, no, no, wrong, wrong, wrong!!! I am NOT OLD and I def do NOT look old. Or do I??? That's it, I am growing back my long hair.

Over and out.

x

Substance is everything

Nelli & Elli, what a couple, we clicked the moment we layed our eyes on each other. Good times. Mandy called me Elli and Elli got called Nelli sometimes.

Tonight I have been a Ben & Jerry bandit...ate the whole pack, do I feel great or skinny? I don't think so!!! Going shopping with my mommy tomorrow so hopeffuly I will manage to loose a spoon of the icecream I ate. I mean you sweat like a pig walking around stores with all of the clothing layers on.

I know I have been bad at updating my blog, I have so much to say but get way too lazy to write it down. Well since this is what Allana sees everytime she opens her internet explorer page or whatever the name is I should make an effort. Can't believe this still is her homepage. I would never leave Allanas blog as a homepage. While I'm talking about Punanchkin I should also mention that I miss my husband. Normally I don't drink tea with milk but everytime Allana makes tea for me it is a white tea. So I have been making those quite alot recently. It's funny how close we are. I mean we fight soo soo soo much. Allana you need to get a job so that we both get waay too tired to fight come home, wait for Shannon to come home and then make Kristian to cook for us, (he is the jobless one) Then we pass out (not drunk but tired), in the morning we wont have time to fight because we will have to go to work early. So yeh I figured it out for the weekdays. Now, when it comes to going out...oh loord, beware. Or we could solve that too, you become lesbian Allana so I wont have a reason to get mad at you for no reason?! Sweet plan.

I have to go and have a coffee with Michaela and then I need to go out with her. I am broke. Oh well. That is the reason why it took me a WEEK to give her my number. I know that she is bored and is hating Sweden and will want to meet and therefore refuse to hang up before getting an answer from me about this going out/meeting. I want to meet her and love her but don't have an answer. I don't know, so I have been having urges to grab the phone and call and then ending up not doing it. So hopefully Friday...

I'm tired of writing!
xxx

My, oh my!

Sooo, now I have tried this whole going out in Sweden and it SUCKS!!! It was so different than I remembered it. The clubs are definetily nicer looking, people are better dressed but oh my god its boring compared to Australia. First I thought that everyone were more sober, but no after a better look around, the majority of the crowd were off their faces. That's not the point, the point is that people here are stuck up and are trying to be sophisticated and present themselves accordingly or at least try to, many are very snobby, others just rude, no one is really just letting it loose. Even the dance floor looks boring. I like the cleaned look and all of that, but putting so much time and effort on their appearance people here seem to forget that they go out to mingle and have fun. It is sooo much harder to make friends with people, I mean random people. I wish that Swedish people could get some of that Aussie spirit, charm and simplicity in human relationship, that openness and friendliness. I wish people here could smile with a real smile, that is meant to express their joy and not a fake one which you come across way too often here. That is what I miss with Australia, not the weather but the customs. Swedes need more sun, 3 months a year is not enough!!!

Had a reunion with Linda yestarday and it was a bit unrealistic in a way! I wish things could go back to what they were 6 months ago when we lived together and could see each other every day. I also met Lindas girl friends, they are all very sweet!
Thank you Sara for opening the door to your home and heart. Also thank you Sandra for a great night. Both of you are so sweet, Sandra is also very CUTE...(hahaha)
When I got home today I realised that I got sick again! This time I feel like crap!

Miss everyone, specially 3 ladies: Allana, Shannon and J-Lil! Miss us four ladies together.
Mwah!!! Much love.

You have watched 119 minutes of video today, wait 57 min...

It's 9 am and I am up, sitting in the kitchen with a ciggie and coffee, have been up since 4 am. Let me tell you something, yet again I fell in this "I'm pretty sure I can cope with jetlag very well" trap. For the two past days I've fallen asleep really early, around 9-10pm and woken up real early. Obviously, no matter how hard I try jetlag is kicking my ass. I'll give it a few days or a week, should be fine by then.
My flight home went pretty well, the flights themselve weren't too bad. The layovers were more annoying. First in Sydney, where they threw away my Vegemite (I so wanted to see my brothers face when he tried it, but the stupid can had more than 100 ml in it and apparantely it counts as a liquid or whatever they said). I was supposed to collect vouchers from Thai Airways in Sydney because I changed my flight but I couldn't leave the airport so no vouchers. My next stop was Singapore and if you think that Goldie is humid, well time to rethink, the humidity level there was crazy. Got to feel it in the smoking area which was sweet as, they even had a bar with rinks and if I haven't lost/forgot my credit card in Allanas card I would have been by the bar. People in Singapore are very friendly and when I get the chance I would love to go there. My next layover was Heathrow, London. Seeing London through the plane window, buildings, nature and the rain made me so happy that I couldn't hold my tears back. For the first time in 10 months, I was back in Europe, let me tell you something that was the craziest feeling ever. Fantastic. Instantly it hit me, I am only a few hours away from my mom and my brother.
In Heathrow the police were walking around with guns, I guess considering the past they kinda have to, but it was weird. Spent my few early hours in Heathrow by browsing designers stiff. Tiffany's wedding collection was dazzling. OOOh it so sparkled in my eyes, made my fingers all itchy. If I only had a few mills, who cares married or not, jewellery they had behind the glass was sooooo prettyyy!!!
Thought of Allana and Jess whenever British people spoke...had an urge to yell out "Chaaaaaarlieeee biiit meeeeey!" Oh my. British people though, not so friendly, not a tiny little bit. Compared to Aussies they are freaking RUDE, ALLRIIIGHT (Shannons accent).
In the line for the security check for the Stockholm plane I stood next to Sanna Bråding, she is so pretty even though her hair is shaved off nowadays. Everyone in the line was holding a Swedish passport, (their passports were in an excellent condition, I guess they didn't get to go on a year long binge in Aussie eh eh eh eh hee). The funny thing about the people in the line was that I might have been the only one who could confirm the stereotypical view of Swedes. "The blonde, blue eyed, big boobed girl" and I am not even Swedish. I saw two other blonde girls, probably from Stockholm as well. Rest of the line (and trust me it was long) included people from ALL around the world. I am still getting used to this versatility in this country. Australia doesn't have this type of immigration. On the plane I was ordering "white tea" while Swedish lady next to me ordered "a tea with miiilk please" ("l" in milk read it as if a baby would have said it...) Everyone had so strong Swedish accent while speaking in English, I had a hard time holding myself and not starting to laugh. Linda and her wannabe Swedish accent wouldn't even stand a chance compared to those people.
When I finally got off the plane, I once again felt an urge to cry, but stronger this time, I actually did cry. When I was leaving the customs to enter the lounge where everyone was waiting for the arrivin passengers I had to bite my lip real hard and resist from crying. I have been wondering what it would be like to see my family after a year, would it be strange? I mean we had a constant contact but would it feel different? As soon as I saw my mom and my brother it was like I have never even left, the feeling is undescribable. Everything went back to normal in a second, both mom and I talking at the same time, my brother trying to get in a sentence every now and then.
The weather is heaps different and colder but I actually liked it and I still do, I enjoy being home, I am on a vacay in Stockholm, how weird does that sound? I LOVE BEING HOME!!!
This morning I enrolled in my courses for semester 1, year 2. No Spanish for me next year, it clashed with my stupid statistics lecture, actually they are at the same time same day and I have to priorities, but that doesn't mean that I am going to quit Spanish alltogether, I'll just have to postpone it a little bit.
This was just a little update, I wanted to say so much more, but forgot alot of it. I will just save it for later.
Don'tmiss Aussie too much (talk about it all the time, and even refer to it as home many times. Mostly miss the people there. But you all will still be there next semester. It already feels like the time is flying by too quickly, I want to stop it and enjoy it with my family)

xoxo Nelli

Just a bunch of hacks

Still in Oz, don't really know when I will leave, hopefully on Tuesday. Bangkok is still demonstrating, never ever having a layover there ever again. Allthough it feels better being stuck in Australia than it would have been in Bangkok, that's for sure.

Had a great day in Ballina, doing absolutely nothing.

Said goodbye to a son of a snake at the airport today, was pretty sad. Saw Darcy at the airport as well and Mette and another guy from the village. Brissie airport was full of people I know, which is a bit random.
It is getting even hotter down here than it was before, just a few minutes in the sun drive you crazy!

Miss everyone at home and will hopefully see you on the 4th !!!

xx

Ey girl, ey ey, ey girl....

Thank you my beloved Mother and Brother, for being there for me, for supporting me and believing in me. Thank you for letting me to pursue all of my dreams. I love you very much!

Thank you to all of the wonderful people that I have met during 2008! It has been an amazing year. I got to know so many amazing and different personalities throughout this year. Best memory of the year still remains that road trip to Byron, which supposed to be a camping trip, but we had miss Hilton with us…Sleeping on the ground wasn’t good enough and the beach was dirty, all of us were way too slow when hiking etc I still loved that trip, thank you Linda, Steve and Philly-poo. Of course there have been so many other memories, like camping at Inskip point, Ballina, Q1, just chilling in Surfers, our trip to Brissie when Lindie got sick, Allana and I freaking out, laying in the grass all day outside of mine and singing at night, when Maxi and Chad played guitar, playing poker till 6 am and still not winning, singing Soulja Boy in the lecture halls, standing on the kitchen table screaming with Allana because of a spider in the kitchen, just being and doing nothing. 2008 has been a great year and there is still a few months left of it, which I will enjoy in the comfort of my own home with my dear family that I have missed so much.

Linda:

The one and only person who has enough patience to deal with me, I truly love you. I found a true and great friend in you. When you left last semester I honestly felt like half of me was missing and I am not even joking.

Allana:

Roomie, who had to put up with my shift for a year now, should we really move out together again??? We are like a cat and a dog but we find our ways back to the friendship and at it’s peaks it is amazing. I haven’t seen other roommates at the village who care about each other this much.

Steve:

You are one of my first friends here in Oz and probably one of the few people who really know me. You see me for who I am and you don’t judge me. You have brought a lot of warmth and care into my life. I look up to you. I am happy you are not leaving us just yet.

Shannon:

You red haired bitch, love you my future roomie. Stop eating those Allstars boxes or you will explode. Please DO NOT get yet another job, 3 of them is enough. See you in March.

Eric:

Your laughter, Haha it cracks me up. What an amazing person. Too bad you have to go home, I will come and visit in Canada for sure and we can play guitar hero or I will just be the groupie that I am.

Phil:

Phil, haha, no words can describe our friendship. You are a ball and I love you. We click ok. I am mean you are stupid and it’s fun. You are another person who knows me.

Gunnar:

The asshole wannabe himself who actually is the sweetest guy ever. I miss the poker nights, your swearing and being an idiot.

Tommyboy:

THE BEST neighbour ever!!! Killing spiders, sharing chairs, dealing with me being noisy, promising consequences that never seem to come. Have the best time in Zimbabwe and see you next semester when we are no longer neighbours.

Tara-Lee:

Hot stuff who hates when I call her pretty, whatever, I will keep on calling you that. Still remember when you started a fight at Tavern with that rude guy. I have had some crazy and fun times with you. Thanks for cutting my hair. LOL!

Jessica:

If you would look up the definition of craziness in the English dictionary I am pretty sure you would find Jessica after that word. Lady you are sick (in a good way of course). Maybe a bit too much bum shows throughout this year but I absolutely love it. Keep on slapping that goon, oh wait you don’t have it in Canada which means you will have to come back Down under.

May Linn:

You are one of the old people crew, an amazing person, one of the friendliest I know as a matter of fact. You are so kind and so nice it’s unbelievable. I am lucky to be married to you darling. See you next semester.

Michaela:

“Miss Saaaa-aaa-aaa-ntaaa Luuuciiiiiiaaaa”, you sing and you grab people to sing with you even if you have to force them hence the grabbing. Who ever has fallen a victim to Michaela’s “grab and force the fucker to sing that weird African song with you” knows what I am talking about. You are the centre of attention. Iiiiiiiiiii Rioooooo De Janeeeirooo……..tra la la la la…




Barbro:

The NERD!!! Always studying on that balcony of yours and now you are more tanned than I am. I am going to miss you while you are gone. I think I owe you a carton of Camel’s, do you reckon???

Norway Linda:

Miss “I am too good for Griffith so I am changing to Bond”. Grandma of the whole Norwegian gang. Haven’t seen you so much this semester but every time I have has been a pleasure. Let’s improve after the summer break.

Aimee:

You are my very first friend, my beginning and hopefully continuation. You are so lovely. I see you as a little sister and I promise that next semester I will improve as the person you look up to! Mwah!

Courtney Reading:

You are the most social person I have ever known, you know everyone but you are definitely not one of those people who “just know” every one, you actually DO know them. Love you gorgeous.

Kristian:

You are my always thinking and analyzing friend, even in the drunkest state of mind. We have had some pretty awesome conversations and next semester I am going to be your room mate. Watch out sweetie!!!

I have definitely not written down all of you people, but hopefully you will understand I am in a bit of a rush, packing and organizing. Complain if you are mad ha-ha. Thank you all of you for this amazing trip together. I cherish all of our moments together. Also the order of your names wasn’t mean anything.

Just a few names I didn’t mention who do mean heaps to me and have been with me on this journey:

Dani, Darcy, Val, Stacey, Emelie, Bu-Bu, Gladys, Danielle, Karen, Rachel, Chris, Nathan (Northern Territory was it?), Lee, AJ, Ferrar, Kristen, Giovanna, O’Neill and so many others who I forgot.

Lexy.

1, 2, 3, 4 heeeey, la la la la foreeewaaa, heeey...

It is now Wednesday, probably still Tuesday back home. It is raining. I am excited. I have heard that they had a snowstorm in Stockholm. Gave me chills, so weird, finally I will feel the Xmas spirit. Sunday, 6 am.
Steve and Eric, thank you for the lovely dinner idea, or actually lets thank Erics Tina who wanted a dinner cooked by Steve.
I worked my last shift at work today, at least for the year.
I just can't wait to get home now!!!
Love you all!!!
xx

See you later!

Bye Jessica! Hopefully our paths meet again. I hate goodbyes. This time I just shut in. I don't know what's happening...

Love you.

How could you be so heartless?

The final countdown has started, 9 days left 'til I am sitting on a plane at Brisbane Airport ready to leave Oz. What do I feel about that? Mixture of feelings, I am excited, happy, nervous, jumpy, sad, hopeful, curious...there are many words that can describe what I feel right now.

I am a bit dissapointed in the weather, it has been raining alot so I can't tan which sucks. Apart from that I like being in my room reading a novel or writing on my blog and listening to the pleasant sound of the rain. There is something about it that calms you down, puts you in a homey mood. I have unwinding lately, after the exams, slowing down and just taking it easy. Felt boring at first but it is really nice, you don't have to be up to something 24/7. Plan for tomorrow is to see a movie with Ballina and just enjoy each others company. This year has been a rollercoaster, with many ups and downs for both of us. Mostly because we were faced with independence, adulthood for the first time in our lives and got overwhelmed in good and bad ways. At least I experienced something like a "buffet effect" where you can eat all you can until you puke and then eat some more and more and more. When you know you have to stop but continue just because. I am still learning to balance out the responsibilities and joy. I have gotten better at doing it.

Even though all of the events throughout this year Allana and I have managed to have each other. We have fought more than usual lately, specially this past week, we had our storms that would sort out the next days. I think it is because we are emotional right now for different reasons, there is alot of tension and it is so much easier to hurt someone close to you and take it out on that person. Well I am glad we managed to stick together.

I just finished reading this novel called "Bachelorette #1" that Linda left, it has been my escape from the reality. It is filled with those fake feel good situations. It is very fake and predictable, maybe except the very end of the novel. Not gonna go in to the details about it but we need novels like that every now and then. They distract us from our misery and give us hope.

Btw, Linda I think that you get back home from states the 28th, that is the day before I will land in Arlanda...weird...


Miss you "Ama" and Danjusha!!!

Chmoki!

Sipping microwave warmed coffee at 3 am

This is definately something Linda and I would do during one of our study sessions. Now I am forced to do it alone. I don't need coffee to stay awake because I pretty much slept all day. Anyhow I realised that I had coffee, so I made loads of it. It has gotten cold after a couple of hours and therefore I am now microwaving it. Drinking it with no shit, just like Linda likes it, no milk, no sugar. Not because I am trying to copy Linda but just because I am way too lazy to put sugar and milk in it. Plus I shouldn't have sugar in it just in case I run out of power and start feeling tired. I still have couple of chapters to master. Then I am good for an early morning nap, followed by more studying and then exam and finally NO MORE STATS for the year.

Allana is a poo-face, she is sleeping. She is the worst "all-nighter buddy" in the history of "all-nighter buddies". Her definition of pulling an all-nighter is to stay awake 'til 3 am latest 3.30 am. All-nighters of that kind are for pussies. A real all-nighter is staying awake 'til the time you woke up on the previous day. Linda knows how to do it well, we have done it sooo many times.

We all know though (even Allana) that all-nighters (the ones for studying) in 6107 are never working, we end up doing EVERYTHING else, BUT studying. Somehow we manage to get through our assignments and exams.

Tonight I am pulling this off all alone, so far I have spent couple of hours on reading the book for the exam, rest of the god knows how many hours have been spent to:

*play Bitch
*play Tetris (allthough that was the worst idea ever, as the game got to level 8, figures started dropping down real quickly and made me all dizzy which resulted in a headache. Damn you Jessica, it's an evil game)
*Msn
*Hotmail
*Stalking people
*Watching Supernatural with Jess and Shannon
*Cleaning
*Just staring at the wall
*Calling Allana and waking her up
*Knocking on Allanas door to discuss assignment marks and once again waking her up
*Talking to Lindie on Skype
*Writing this post
*and many more useless events

Maybe I should engage myself in trying to complete the "impossible quiz"?


I got back my assignment results for Stats and was quite satisfied with my mark, which inspired me to keep on studying for tomorrows exam and nailing it. Hopefully I will.

Then it is ONLY 1 exam left, can't believe this semester is over very very soon! I can clearly remember Lindas last days, Phils last days, Dani leaving and that was BEFORE this semester even began. Time flies by waaay too fast.

xx

I get it in 'til the sunrise, doing 90 in a 65, windows rolled down screaming Ahhh!

Exams time tomorrow, my first real one for this semester. I wouldn't call Spanish test an exam.

1002 Individual and Social Psychology, the easiest exam. On Tuesday it is time for statistics, which is going to be tough. I work both exam days as well. Busy.

Last night was a night of closures. It was a great night, different from other night out in a good way. Jess you got your heart to heart, so happy for you guys.

I got my kind of a closure. I feel a relief, I still feel what I felt but now we are good and we are friends now I just will need time. It is easier on good terms, not like it was the way before.

Finally girlfriends I will stop bugging you about "777" who is "157" now or omething. Great the number is changed. It is like in a weird way it is changing for me towards the better. Like the number change would symbolise it. I know it sounds weird but that number has ment alot for me last few months.

Home soon, really excited. I was missing the snow and the cold and warm clothes today. I am not looking forward saying goodbyes, I have done it before and don't feel like doing it again. I will not lie the hardest to say goodbye to will be miss Lillie. It wont be the same without my "lovercakes", "lover", "partner in crime". You better come and visit or even better come for teachers college Down Under, you know it would be an awsume time. As I told you, haven't you had enough of Americans at the village? Who else will say "Nice bum, where you from!!!" or cook the banana bread or shorten my hair while dryblowing it? Bottomline, you are a great friend and it will feel empty as soon as I am back to Oz.

Miss Wilhede this is for you!

There is something you forgot when you left, you took the envelope but not the content of it.
So here it comes, I am sorry there are no dotty letters in the words. I will bring the original to you when I am in Sweden.
xx

Hej min alskade Linda!

Har sitter jag i min sang klockan 4.11 och skriver ett brev till dig! Varfor, undrar du sakert...Ja, kara du, jag har inte den blekaste. Maste vara for att jag ar stord, som vi alla har konstaterat for ett bra tag sedan.

Nar du laser detta sitter jag sakert pa min tva timmars lektion, maste vara trakigt. Tva timmar pa raken med Allana. Jag som inte kan bete mig normalt med henne. Hon har vantat for lang tid med att prata vilket gjorde att jag distanserade mig fran henne, kan inte hjalpa det.

Egentligen borde jag sitta och skriva min uppsats eller atminstone lasa pa fakta och teorier i det amnet men icke sa nicke. Nu ar det brevvaxla som galler, blir nog mest en monolog.

L. U. har lugnat mig angaende juridiken och examen och min framtid som advokat om jag skulle vilja bli det. Jag behover inte hur hoga som helst betyg just nu. Hon sa att uppdragsgivaren vill hellre se en utveckling i mina betyg. Vi satt och pratade en hel del om juridik och hur det funkar i diverse lander.

Gud vad jag kommer att sakna dig nar du aker. Vill inte ens borja tanka pa det, ska se det som en positiv sak. Jag har hittat en till riktigt nara van pa min livsvag. Nagon jag kan lita pa, nagon jag vet kommer finnas dar for mig om det behovs. Du vet hur man ofta blir betuttad i manniskor man precis traffat, man vill umgas med de jatte mycket och tror att det ar pa riktigt. Med dig och mina kanslor jantemot dig vet jag hundra procentigt att det ar karlek och ingen liten nyvans foralskelse.

Jag ar sa oerhort glad att jag fick chansen att lara kanna dig och den underbara manniska du ar. Ditt talamod skulle nog racka for hela varlden for jag ar inte sa enkel att ha som kompis, men du star ut, aven om du klagar lite da och da. Jag har dessutom fatt uppleva och dela underbara handelser med dig. Som att bada i Surfers och vara glad och nojd med livet eftersom vagorna ar helt fantastiska, jag har klappat min forsta kanguru med dig vid min sida, jag har tack vare dig kunnat hajka upp till "Light House" i Byron Bay och se en helt ny varld for mig som bland annat inkluderade delfiner aven om de sag ut som svarta prickar. Jag har aven statt och kollat utover det magnifika landskapet vid Mynion Falls och andats in lyckan som inte bestar av materiell substans. Den lyckan som jag kande dar har ett emotionellt varde for mig och du ar kopplad till detta minne som jag haller nara mitt hjarta.

Mitt minne innehaller inte enbart storslagna handelser. Du ar underbar som finns. Jag alskar dina utbrott av hysteri innan en uppsats nar du ser pa mig som en liten hundvalp. Helt forsvarslos och orolig for hur du ska klara dig. Det ar aven underbart att bara vara lojlig med dig, du dommer mig aldrig.

Jag minns var forsta Tavern tillsammans nar vi beslutade oss att ga hem sjalva och gick i fel riktning eller Tavern da vi beslutade oss for att ga hem eftersom vi var for berusade. Alla minnen fran daliga och bra tider tillsammans haller jag kart. Du ar en av de fa manniskor i mitt liv som jag har lart mig nya saker av och utvecklats som person. En av de ar min mamma. Du ar en av de som jag har slappt in i mitt liv och vill lasa in har sa att du kan vara i mitt liv for evigt. Skulle kunna skriva mycket mer men maste tyvarr ga till min underbara tva timmars lektion.

Alskar dig otroligt mycket Linda!

din Nelli

(vi ses klockan 7)

That letter seemed shorter when I read it, haha, such a long time ago that I wrote it!

Toodles!

How come he behaves around you?

-She is elegant and she is a lady - he said - just like Tom Jones sings in his song.
-Oh, ofcourse, that's it, she is a lady but who is Tom Jones? - she wondered.

Maybe, maybe not, smoking drinking and swearing isn't very ladylike. I have been thinking lately about how different we present ourselfs depending on who we are talking to and in what situation we are in. It is not only the appropriate way of communication in different settings but also a possibility of being different from your usual self. We adjust ourselfs according to the benefits certain behaviour might give. I think that people not only are two-faced but multi-faced. That is very interesting. Makes me wanna wonder, is there a such thing as being yourself and being real? How can you be real when it isn't appropriate at all the times? Our society is a doll house, FAKE.

But then again, personality is very complex and depends on different environmental stimuli which makes us react in different ways depending on the situation and people around us. This would be a psychological explanation, tiny part of it.

Very, very interesting, I will keep on thinking about that while smiling and being extra polite at work. People who know me well would usually not call me polite...

Night, night.

I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life

Am I???

Here we are again, thinking and thinking and thinking in circles, not coming to a conclusion. I don't even know what I am thinking about or I do but it is confusing. Partially it is again about finding myself. Just a year ago I was pretty confident that I knew exactly who I was and what I was all about. Australia did definetaly made me to rethink and realise that even though I have experienced alot during my life which made me grow up and mature didn't automatically help me to find myself.

Is it all about talking to other people who still are searching or to people who already found it? Is it a combination of both? I think I am getting a headache. I don't think that I have been helping myself alot either, going out and drinking doesn't really make you smarter, gives you a moment of joy and a day or two of hangover. The bad is greater than the good, is it worth it? Maybe, once in a while.

What about this semester? I have been concentrating on uni more than on myself, haven't really bothered making new friends, did develope my friendships with old friends. Have realised one or two things...I have certainly put some pieces of the puzzle together. I am getting there. This puzzle is one of those huge ones, with tiny pieces and alot of blue, that is sky or sea or white clouds. All of those pieces seem to fit with each other but only the certain special ones do really fit.

Have my Spanish oral exam tomorrow and then work. Wish me good luck.

xox

Just a little love note.

I just wanted to write that I am excited to see my family!!!
Love them very much and haven't seen them for a year!!! Miss them, love them and gonna kiss and hug them sooooo sooon!

xx

Shocked me like an electric feel

Oh Darcy, you're such a sweetheart or "pretty sick" as you would put it. Enjoyed talking to you, you little "monkey-weasil" from Byron. No wonder why Linda and I wanted to adopt you. You're awsum and the fact that you appreciate my pancakes makes you even more awsum. What with village be without this skating curly haired little sneaky Darcy?

I found a new home away from home, my job. The best job I have ever had out of the few ones that I have had. My collegues are like grandparents who look after me and my bosses wife Rhonda is like a mom away from the real mom. Well, there is no replacement for my Mother, never ever, but Rhonda gives the warmth of a caring older person which is awsum!

Hmm this is gonna be pretty lame, I just wrote 8 e-mails to my mom so I am sick of writing, but I still want to write. Maybe I should go try to catch the cat and get some inspiration for this post...

Allana Davie, that lazy bum-bum is sleeping, that's what she has been doing all day today. Probably what I will be doing tomorrow because there is nooo way in the hell that I am going to bed anytime soon. Mainly because I want to study, watch Gossip Girl and other stuff and also because on my bed I have a pile of clean clothes and towels that have to be folded and stuff at some stage. I am a bit too lazy to do that. Can see myself just throwing it on the table and leaving it for tomorrow. Hmm...

Otherwise I am just over everything and I miss home want to go there ASAP. Just now, riiight now. So curious to see A. of whom I've heard alot by this point, there might be a tiny little chance that we will get along, knowing me this chance is tiiiiiiny, but there is hope so it's all good.

Don't get me wrong I am not completely over Australia, still is my nuumber 1 destination to be, but I just want a little break that's all.

Oh well I better get going...

Ciaooo!

Jag är en gummibjörn...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moVtHLtaznM

Jag är en smarrig mullig, skojig, gummibjörn!

2.32 am, youtube is my best friend right now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QTAtHwtAxCQ&feature=user

Kramissången är urgullig ju!!! Förutom att jag har lite svårt att förstå varför de valde en morot som kaninens kärleksobjekt...lite halvt snuskigt och konstigt tycker jag.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7dCBbaQLEE

Jag har just insett något, JAG SAKNAR DET SVENSKA språket. Haha, udda som fan.

Förövrigt är jag på ett bebis humör just nu mitt i natten/tidigt på morgonen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ODc6x3yvEGI

Något är seriöst fel med mitt huvud, allt jag vill göra nu (istället för det normala som skulle vara sömn) är att sitta och kolla på videos med små kaniner, gummibjörnar och kycklingar som dansar runt, har stora ögon (det har de bara för att folk har lättare att tycka om något med stora ögon, minns inte varför men läste det i psykologi boken. Har hursomhelst hamnat i den fällan, dum som jag är), mjukt lent päls, är tecknade och har små bebis röster. Jag är fast verkligen. Små gulliga djur MER MER MER!!!

Och nu har det total flippat för mig här kan jag tala om för er, nu sitter jag här och sjunger:

My name is Inga and I am from Sweden,

and I can fall in love with you

and if you meet me on Ibiza, I can show you how to party too, ooh oh ooh oh oh oh..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iwuUskHcWyA

Jag har flippat!!! Jag tror jag har en saknaSverigeensamisittrumgloendespåyoutubenatt i natt! Det maste man väl få ha någon gång, speciellt jag som oftast är väldigt glad över att jag inte är i Sverige. Tack och adjö!

It's all about 100 different options...noticing you, noticing me.

Let me tell you something; Grocery to the Shopping is hard AS! At least if you are me. I have a certain routine, have had it for ages now:

It all begins with me walking into the store, excited, taking the trolley and starting my grocerie shopping adventure.

I either go alone or with a friend. When alone I spend at least half an hour just walking around talking on phone or texting and at least walk 3 times down each isle. Usually I call a friend to keep me company because it is boring, but end up hanging up after a while to actually grocery shop. So that ends up being both waste of time and my credit. If I go with a friend I save credit but I talk just as much if not more and it takes ages to pick all of the groceries.

I finally start grocery shopping, here comes the HARDEST part of it, CHOICES. All of those different colours and shapes and flavour, they drive me insane, they stare at me and I stare at them, I walk away, I come back, I am CONFUSED, my mind is in Disturbia...

Last time Shannon came with me, it all started with me trying to find a conditioner I liked. First thing I saw was a limited edition from Sunsilk. IT WAS PINK!!! AND PRETTY, but definately not worth the money, it took me up to 10 minutes to get over myself and just take a Palmolive condtioner. Easy as! I thought, finally moving on.

Bitch pleeease, they come in sooo many different colours. I sat there opened every one of them and smellt them. Dropped one to the floor and broke it in the process. Who cares? After another good ten minutes I chose a conditioner. Same story with the tea, too many choices. Shannon was getting inpatient by this point. I found pink tea.

And finally, when I am shopping alone I end up with a trolley full of groceries which are transferred into at least 8 bags...8 heavy bags...yeh

I need professional help! :P

In other news everything is very good, I had an awsum day at work today, for some reason I enjoyed it. It was a ten hour shift, weird. My boss didn't even mention my late arrival yesterday, weird that too...I like my job, I like people I work with and I better not oversleep again. EVER.

HOT n COLD

...

.You are an idiot... I am an idiot... Entire world is an idiot. Am I having one of those days again? No even better, I have been having one of those weeks which is wonderful.

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes,

Yeh, You PMS like a bitch I would know

And You overthink, always speak cryptically,

I should know You're no good for Me.

You're hot then You're cold, You're Yes then you're No

You're In then You're Out

You're Up then You're Down

You're wrong when it's right

It's black and its white

We fight, we breake up

We kiss, we make up...

Everyone who knows me, knows that apart from being an ENOURMOUS ego I am also extremely moody...take getting annoyed every now and then and expand it to the extremes, that is me. Represent. Should be ashamed, but that's what makes me unique and oh so charming.

Lately I have been awful, mostly towards Allana...I would say that Katy Perrys song Hot n Cold summarises our relationship right now. Pretty good!

It is 1.59 am and I have to get up at 5.00 am latest, still not sleeping. Idiot. Having one of my sleepless and analysing nights. I better go and have a nap, can't really call it a sleep.

Not seeing forward tomorrow AT ALL! Overslept this morning and came one hour too late to work. My boss is working tomorrow, he will probably have a talk to me AGAIN, even though I told him that oversleeping never ever will happen again. Damnit. So so embarassing...

LOVE you Mom and Daniil! Miss you guys, can't wait 'til I see you again! Can't believe that it has been a year soon, the longest I have been away from you on my own...Feels like I moved to Australia just yesterday.

Linda it's you and me soon again as well, Michaela is gonna be in Sthlm from 7th of Dec, SWEET, Team Sweden reunited in Sweden!!!

OK time for a nap.

Night night.

...

Get that clear...

Aimee!!!

I miss you!

I am happy we spoke tonight and whatever happens from now on you know how I feel, which is all I need. It is your choice if you want to forgive me or not.

You are my first friend here and you can't imagine how much that means to me.

I haven't been the best friend all of the times.

Hopefully one day we can get back to what we were and just forget the past!

Hopefully I will see you in Sweden when you are on your trip to Europe.

Love you!

If I were a boy,

even just for a day...drink beer with the guys and chase after girls...
I swear I'd be a better man. (just bits and pieces from the song)

I am in love with Beyonces new song...

When I got back from tanning today I faced a shocking view when I opened the door,

all of the chairs were on the couches, it smellt like bleech and

wow, the floors were clean.

Allana cleaned the appartment,

how sick is that??? It is absolutely shining and I haven't touched a thing...I am super impressed.

THANK YOU!!! (finally)

P.S. I got a note about taking my shoes off and keeping the window in the bathroom open...

Cracked me up...how cute.

I am almost done with the theory for my learners licence,

didn't think it would be this easy, tried the online test several times and got 30/30 every time...

no wonder why people are such bad drivers down here.

Bye, bye!!!

Sending you all of my love Linda.

Sorry for what happened! Wish I could hug you and kiss you right now! Stay strong babydoll!

In happier news, I overslept, AGAIN, therefore I want to say thank you Ballina for driving me to work today...(I will be knocking on your door within a half an hour to wake you up, you love it). Still sick, so work is going to be interesting.

Can't wait til I am home, only 48 days to go, can't wait to see everyone, most and foremost my mom and my brother. Then the girls. Linda, we wont be living together but we wont need Skype to talk. Super duuper excited!

I better get going!

Later...

Just heard this song, brings back memories.

Yaro,Yaro, hey

Yaro, hey (vi kan hej)

Yaro, hey (vi ska)

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Yaro, hey Yeah

Högt lågt överallt, ja sa?

Jag vakna med huvudvärk och sten i mitt bröst

Jag vet ingen tröst,

jag måste sluta be till min törst

För det som kändes jobbigt känns nu dubbelt så svårt

Och hur illa betedde jag mig på klubben igår?

Jag var vidrig mot vänner, vad sa jag till tjejen?

Bråka med vakten om galnaste grejen

Ligger kvar i sängen, hoppas känslan ebbar

tills rummet krymper och jag trängs med väggar

Hon e 5 i 11, telefonen den ringer, försöker återfå minnet,

Vill här ifrån, och försvinnerut i en bakfylla

blandad med ångestjag säger samma sak för 6002:e gången

Jag ska aldrig mer göra så jag känner såhär

Det kvittar vilken fest de är och hur många jag känner där

Jag svär om jag bara kan klara idag

så ska jag ta mig i kragen och vara så glad

För the botten is nådd

Hur långt kan man gå?

Hur lågt kan man sjunka?

Hur kasst kan man må?

Kändes förjävligt innan

men det börjar bli lite bättre nu min vän

Om jag tappar fästet och trillar ner ska jag klättra upp igen

Tillslut när jag orkar ta mig upp ur min bäd

dfår jag en chock när jag ser klockan är kvart över 1

jag skulle träffat min syster för typ en timme sen

jag missa telefon-tiden hos kronofogden igen

men jag lär ju mig aldrig av mina misstag

vilket ämne det jag har en brist av

varför går jag alltid över gränsen

min hjärna den står där brevid när det händer

jag måste ringa runt och be om förlåt

känns som jag hellre vill dö men vi får se hur det går

tacka fan för mina polare har tålamod med mig

hade jag vart dom hade jag knappt tåla att se mig

min kyl den är tom, mina pengar är slut

alla ledtrådar säger: förändra dig nu

patetisk och ynklig, fy fan vilken dag

Jag duschar men samvetet, det sitter kvar

För the botten is nådd

Hur långt kan man gå?

Hur lågt kan man sjunka?

Hur kasst kan man må?

Kändes förjävligt innan men det börjar bli lite bättre nu min vän

Om jag tappar fästet och trillar ner ska jag klättra upp igen

Deppig som jag är börjar jag tänka på annat

som gör mig ännu ännu ledsnare och jag är nästan förbannad

men det som inte dödar mig blir jag ju starkare av

det är dags stirra upp skiten och göra smartare val

så knasst man kan vara, ja man smäller av

och de ät knappt att man klarar sånna sämre dar

innan det går för långt, nu är jag desperat

jag vill ju se till att göra nåt bättre av

denna korta tid som vi har här på denna planeten

kan man inte gå runt och skapa sina egna helveten

(Raahhh) äntligen så börjar ångesten släppa

och den bästa medicinen för mig är sånger som denna

Vi tittar upp ner, överallt

Jag sa: Upp ner och överalltöverallt Whooo

För the botten is nådd

Hur långt kan man gå?

Hur lågt kan man sjunka?

Hur kasst kan man må?

Kändes förjävligt innan men det börjar bli lite bättre nu min vän

Om jag tappar fästet och trillar ner ska jag klättra upp igen

Vi tittar uppåt uppåt uppåt

Vi tittar uppåt uppåt uppåt

Yaro, yaro

Miss Independent...

I JUST WROTE A HUGE POST!!! ...AND DELETED IT!

RECONSTRUCTION OF THE ORIGINAL POST:

Being sick sucks, my nose is an open tap that is impossible to close, my head goes "na na na", my body aches as if something as heavy as a car fell on it and I keep on coughing all of my inner organs out. SWEET! My questions is how you manage to get sick in this hot weather, it is not only me being sick, everyone is sick. Well makes me miss home extra much, mom would see that I am sick right a way and I could act like an infant again. Doesn't work with Allana the same way, she is a baby herself and needs alot of attention. You might get pity from her for a second and then she needs all of my attention on her. Lovely, I kind of can pull it off when I am not sick...

Tommyboy gave me some pills, they helped, better than Panadol, I also ate garlic, hopefully I am restored soon. Have an assignment due tomorrow, my last one...

Hopefully I can work on Jess and she will feel extremely bad for me...haha, my lovercakes lost her passport somewhere in the library so yesterday we were fixing that...poor bitch. It is all sorted, we just gonna go and post her applications for a new one now. She was so jumpy and nervous, Allana and I couldn't stop laughing, allthough I don't know what I would do if it was me.

I am going to go now...over and out!

TA AV DIG DIN TRUCKER KEPS!!!

Lovely ladies

I can't believe how self-centred I must be, I talk waaaay to much, I wish people sometimes just slapped me to shut me up. I rarely listen and I interrupt while the other person is talking, haha I am unbelievable. I always have my detailed stories that I just have to tell and preferrably 300 times, at least. Wow...

Last night Shanban and I were talking, once again me me me me talking, but then something happened and I decided to do something dramatic, to listen for a second and it payed off. I learned something about Shannon, I gave her the opportunity to open up, which was well needed and I have known her for a year soon...Although we started to spend more time together this semester, because I used to hate her in February. Why? She lookes bitchy...and she thought I came off as a bitch, that's not a surprise though.

So young lady Shannon is growing on me and I am happy to have her as a friend I am also very excited to move in together with her. Should be heaps of fun!

I have been tanning all day again, enjoying my last day in the sun, well I will be in the sun tomorrow, it's just that the pool and tanning oil will be switched into a tray with coffees or food, running around, working in the deli section, making food or by the till. Excitiing!!!

Will have to do some school work as well, haven't done much this week, needed my relaxation!

xx

It took me over two hours...

Guess whos room it is? Yes, Allanas, a bit of a change though. Started with removing mould from her wall and then just got caught up and decided to surprise her and clean her room, actually maybe prove a point as well, she always says that her room is a mess because she has alot of stuff, well the stuff is still there but it ain't messy anymore. For now, it will be back to its normal state when my dearest returns "home" from home. Oh well! I can say one thing, I never thought that I would say this but: ALLANAS room is cleaner than my own, my room isn't messy though. :)

Today I have done almost nothing, just chilled by the pool and tanned, swam 550 meters. The fire alarm went off while we were by the pool, I lost the count for the fire alarms this week, just like all other weeks. Same story with the firebrigade, they don't bother being quick anymore, because they know it's the village, they don't even go straight to the room where it went off. That's the way they get fat and unfit, like myself. Their job is coming here for nothing. It is funny in a way. Village is a circus. Don't live here, good entertaiment though.

Nice sunny days it is all over tomorrow. Because tomorrow is my last day of freedom, work all weekend, sucky sucky, but that's money. Study time and then bed, getting up early tomorrow.

Mwah!

Snakes, clouds and heat.

Morning, definately feeling better this morning, had a sleepin, til 9.30. It is windy and sunny outside, wish it was warmer. Waiting for my lover cakes Jess to come over, we gonna go and print off her project and I will get a little bit of exercise.

So the roadtrip with Shanban is off, we are not gonna go before the break, we spoke about it and when it comes to the financial part the trip would have been too soon. We decided to go after the holidays in the end of February. The plan is to fly to Melbourne, I might as well just fly there on my way back from Sweden that will save me money. We will stay in Melbourne for a couple of days catch the train to Sydney, stay there for a couple of days and then head up north to Shannons grandma. (I think that the place is called Foster) then we will head to Yamba where Shannon lives and take the car back to Goldie!

Now its time for me to go and tan!

Adiooos!

Something more...

Pursuing dreams and goals in life is not always the easiest task ever. It is both detrimental and beneficial for a person. It comes along with ups and downs and when either or hits you it can be the best or the worst moments of the life. Right now I am having one of those downs. Not really sure where the feelings are coming from. Maybe the fact that I am alone and wide awake analysing and thinking or maybe just because I am going home soon and just wish it could be sooner. Also have been thinking about major events in my life which occured over a year ago and that doesn't really make me feel better. Maybe I just need to fall asleep and stop thinking, tomorrow is a new day, a new step towards realising my dreams and becoming the person I am on the way to become.

I am aware that what I am doing will pay off in the long run for every one involved, but that long run is taking a damn long time. Sometimes during those ups and downs I start to question myself, I feel selfish and inconsiderate. I should be allright tomorrow. After the rain comes sun, I know it but,

I miss my family very much and I just want to hug and kiss and squeeze them and never let go.

Is this the way growing up feels? I haven't even seen the real life, real world. I just have tasted a tiny bit of it.

Over and out.

Hola chicas y chicos!!!

Como estas??? Soy muy bien!

Welcome to my blog, whoever reads it!

Me llamo Alexandra Nelli. Used to be Nelli from birth, but then I decided to make it to Alexandra after my dear mothers mom, mama convinced me to keep Nelli as a middle name. I don't know why but I have never liked Nelli, probably because you can't have nicknames with that name and nicknames are just too cool. Nowadays I am called Alex or Lexy. (Which btw my mom thinks sounds like a dogs name, I like it though, Lexy) I kinda miss my old name, but I will hear it alot when I go home.

At the moment I am located at the sunniest state of Australia, which is Queensland, I live at the Gold Coast. Well all of the commercials say that you get around 300 and something sunny days a year here. Don't remember exactly. Yeh right, I say bull shit. The weather here is the mooost unpredictable weather in the history of unpredictable weather. It can snow, rain and be hot all in the time of ten minutes. Please do not get me wrong, I absolutely love it, and the idea of having a winter with 16-18 degrees is lovely. I am spoiled weather wise now...

In the end of November I am going home to Sweden for the summer break, which will be winter break back there, not too keen on snow but I am super stoked to see my mommy and my little brother! Will be heaps of fun!!!